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I’m a Good Person, Really, I Am

Working in a secular environment…well, it sucks…

I hate when people complain about Christians being “hypocrites” and pretty much set you up to look that way. Oooh…let’s see if we can catch that Christian in a lie. Ooohhh let’s see if that Christian will gossip. Oooohh let’s see if we can get her to look stupid…I bet she’d do it for a cracker…

Sigh…

I by nature am a very passive person. It is frustrating to me to have to work with blatant liars, cheats, and gossips. I pride myself in living a life worthy of more than that…I am NOT saying that I am little miss perfect princess…I proved that this week. You drop your shield for one second and Satan is there to spear you through the gut. You remove your helmet you’re bound to get smacked upside the head.

Maybe I needed this to wake me up. Get me off my high horse. Well, God if that was you? I heard it, I felt it, and it stung.

So…today…I will raise my head and put that shield BACK on my arm and be sure my helmet’s on tight. Stupid neck straps…

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UGH!! Tuesdays!!

Why is it Tuesdays seem to be worse than Monday?? No…really…

Mondays are a drag because they’re Mondays, but it always seems like I’m able to finish laundry, cook dinner, mow the grass, feed the pigeons on my windowsill, leap tall buildings in a single bound…all with no problem…heh…

But Tuesday…well…

This week has been super busy. It’s VBS at church this week and this is the first year in who KNOWS how long that I have not LED a VBS let alone WORKED at one…sigh…Believe me…I’m not going through withdrawals or anything, but there is a slight tinge of guilt as I drive up to the church in my work clothes and walk into all of these cute little moms in their matching VBS FIESTA shirts…but then…oh then…HAH! I turn the corner and enter the chaos we call drop off time! Then all tinges of guilt rush OUT of my body and a smile crosses my face. I remember that we all go through seasons in our life and for reasons of which I thank God, He hasn’t got me stressing over this right now 🙂 But the driving has been fun…and expensive…

I have a headache, I’m tired, I’m cranky, I’m over the drama in this office, and I’m ready to go home and cuddle up under my clean sheets, look at my neatly folded laundry and tell myself it can wait til Wednesday night to be put away…sigh…

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Our boys have been showing a strong interest in where our meats come from. This conversation happened while eating our dinner last night:

Mike: Blake where does chicken come from?

Blake: Chickens!

Mike: Where does Pork Chops come from?

Blake: piggies!! (After a whispered hint from mommy)

Mike: Where does Hamburger come from?

Blake: Burger King!!

I promise I’ve been cooking more!! REALLY!!

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Rain, Rain, Come our Way!!

Here it is 12 days into hurricane season and it’s already started!! We have our very first storm of the season…meet Alberto…


Right now it’s raining BUCKETS! Who knew we would actually NEED this. This time of the year in FL is usually nice and wet. The warmer it gets, the wetter it gets it seems. Your errands are reduced to the mornings because it rains EVERY afternoon…well, not this year. This year our nice little city is 10 inches below annual rain fall levels. Who knew we’d be praying for a tropical storm? Well, I wasn’t…

You see…we just moved back to FL after living in KY for 3 1/2 years so we missed the bad hurricane season of ’04 and ’05. So, even though this is really needed, seeing a nice projection path, tornado warnings, possibilities of upgrades to hurricane status makes us a bit nervous. This is also the first time we’ve EVER owned our own home. Which brings on its own issues in and of itself. Like the fact that we had to pay more for home owner’s insurance because of those crazy seasons and the season ahead that has been predicted to be as bad…sigh…

So, I leave my worries at God’s feet because really, I don’t have anywhere else to lay them…all of my hurricane supplies are crowding my house 😉 Don’t worry bout us too much…we’ll be sitting at the beach sipping iced tea by the weekend! We HOPE!!

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How you know it’s time to cook a meal for your family…

After being out of the house for two nights straight during dinner time, this is what happens…

My mom was watching the boys last night while Mike and I were at separate Bible Studies…the previous night Mike had picked up BK kid’s meals for the boys…The next night my mom picks up Mickey D’s happy meals and brings them home to our usually appreciate boys…heh…

Ryley: Nana…this toy is a stuffed animal…

Nana: I know isn’t it cute?

Ryley: Nana…Burger King has real toys…

Heh…I’m going home tonight and cooking a REAL meal for my family…HONEST!! Okay…maybe frozen pizza…sigh…

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A Heart Like His

I have joined a new small group that formed for the next 10 weeks to do the Beth Moore study “A Heart Like His” This is one of her older video/study series that she did probably in the 80’s as far as the hair-do’s would tell…heh…Makes me wonder what we’ll think of our fashions now in 20 years…skeery…

This week I did my first week of the study…now for a bit of history…I have done quite a few BM studies…NEVER have I completed one where I’ve done EVERY day’s homework and made EVERY video presentation…THAT is my goal for this summer. This past week started out rough, but Tuesday night I had nothing going on and finished up my study by doing 3 days in one night..heh..that’s one way to get it done, right??? I found myself wishing I hadn’t done that last night though b/c I would have liked to have had one to do…this study is actually REALLY good…

I love finding new things in Scripture. This study is about David. I have always loved the story of David and how much depth the Bible goes to in order to share his remarkable testimony, but through this week’s study I learned some things that I may have KNOWN before but never really paid attention to.

David was a simple boy. A shepherd. No education. No training. He was an artist. He was a warrior. One thing BM said in her study really struck me. Her brother is an accomplished musician who makes a living through conducting and composing music. When he was growing up he had to choose whether he wanted to play basketball in middle school or play in the band. To avoid the teasing he chose basketball. Now, he makes a living with his music. He works with many homosexuals. She posed the question of whether or not sensitive men are pushed into homosexuality because our culture does not see men as being able to be both sensitive and warrioresque at the same time. What an interesting view point. How many times have I looked at someone and just because they seemed tender I assumed they were gay?

David was seen as being both sensitive and artistic through his gentle harp playing (he soothed Saul with his music) and being a strong, warrior and being brave.

Being a mother of boys this has been a profound aha moment for me…Being in this society has made it difficult to raise boys ANYWAY. Now I have the challenge of allowing them to be sensitive and creative as well as being strong and brave. This makes me pose the question what IS masculinity?? I think God has given us a great example in David as to what exactly masculinity is: sensitivity, bravery, hormones (heh), anger, friendship, leadership, ability, agility, etc.

If you like, please leave a comment with what you feel masculinity is about. I look forward to posting more about what I learn through this study. Thanks for reading!! 🙂

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My Reward I Probably Don’t Deserve

Aaaaaahhhhh….I love to be pampered. As I’m sitting here in my office typing away…yes, I am at work…no, I’m not working…and no, you can’t make me…I am fondly remembering my spa day this past Saturday. Don’t be jealous now…

I think it is very important that we take care of ourselves. After all, we clean up poopy diapers, dog vomit, kid vomit, stinky, dirty underwear, and clean urine stained toilets…why shouldn’t we deserve some pampering??

Proverbs 31:28-31:

28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: 29 “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” 30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. 31 Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.


I am soo thankful to have a husband who makes this a priority. He is always making me feel good about myself. I lurve him… There are MANY times I don’t deserve a reward…pickup your jaw…I know you’re surprised, but it’s true!! I often fall short of the Biblical “woman” that is described in Proverbs 31. Sometimes I am WAY intimidated by reading that chapter.

There are times that I go home and just sit…ooohhh can’t believe I’m admiting this…I get so wore out dealing with people at work that I just don’t want to do ANYTHING! My husband understands this because there are nights when he feels the same way. He doesn’t usually complain, because these funks only last normally a night. Heh…I’ll come home the next night and find the mess from the night before and go on an all night cleaning binge…you think I’m kidding…

Why don’t we as women focus enough on ourselves? Why do I not care what I eat, but freak out if my mom feeds my boys one cookie? Why can I wear jeans more than one day, but won’t allow my hubby to leave the house without a clean pair on? Why is it I make sure my dog drinks plenty of water throughout the day but I fill up on diet sodas? It is time to STOP.IT!

I am starting to learn to take care of myself again. I really need to. I haven’t been to a dentist since we got married. We just celebrated our 7th anniversary, so what does that tell you? I suffer migraines that have never been diagnosed. I have frequent stomach aches that I need to figure out what is going on. I’m overweight. I’m behind on my Bible Study. I need to make myself a priority.

As I laid on the table getting my massage on Saturday, I realized just how comforting it is to be touched…don’t get freaked…I don’t mean it like that. I mean in simple hugs from my children, a kiss from my husband, and a hug from a friend…I consider that some of the BEST pampering. I need to do this for myself!!